Unwanted and Forgotten

So I decided to start writing on this again. I just want to share what I have been thinking. And if I use English that doesn't mean I'm good at English but I dunno how to express my feeling in Indonesian. If you read every single post you will find my mistakes, many wrong grammar, tenses and ect. So here we go...

One day, i was in my room, laying in bed, thinking about everything that happen to me.

I feel so grateful about everything that comes to my life, for all the beautiful memories and for all the lessons.

Then, I was thinking about whats the scariest thing in my life. I think about feeling unwanted and forgotten. 

I remember the character, Augustus Waters, in The Fault In Our Stars, he was afraid of dying because he was afraid people will forget every single thing about him. And then suddenly I think about that too, I'm afraid of being forgotten. I'm not like Augustus, he was a basketball star before he was diagnosed for cancer, one of his leg must be amputated and that means he must stop  dreaming about being the professional athlete. I'm just an ordinary girl that lucky to got a chance to have school in one of the best school in town. But in there, most of the times I was thinking that I have no talent.  I'm not that kind of popular girl. I'm not that smartest girl in class that every teacher love. I'm not.

I'm just a girl that love reading fiction books, love watching movies, love musics eventho I can't play any instrument or even sing.

And yaa, im afraid of that